Struggling with Infertility

I don't think it's a secret that Mr. G and I would like to expand our family - it's made appearances in both my 2014 goals post and my bucket list post. But I guess the secret is - we've been trying for a while with no luck. 

So Mr. G and I had some tests done and the doctor broke the news to us last week that for us, becoming pregnant naturally is extremely unlikely. We are infertile.

We're devastated. How could there be no kids in our future?

Mr. G's doctor wants us to wait 6 months, then repeat the testing. If the results are poor again, then we'll be referred to another doctor to start talking about IVF (fertility drugs alone won't work in our situation). Unfortunately, IVF is a complex, costly procedure not covered by insurance. We could afford one round (about $12,000), but what if it's not successful? Adoption is just as complicated and even more expensive (about $25,000). So many what ifs.

While we haven't given up completely, it feels more like we're in denial than true hopefulness. This sucks.

So we're feeling sad and irritated and jealous and whatever else but we're also trying to plan fun stuff as a couple to remind ourselves that being happy doesn't hinge on having a baby. Being infertile isn't our whole life. We can still take pleasure in good food, traveling, and spending time with our favorite people. If only there was an easy way around the pain . .